Being Sick...and Setbacks...

Wow!  I first would like to say sorry for not posting in a long while.  I came down with strep and was knocked down quite a few notches.  I've never had a strain of strep that was so tough on me, but I was down for 3 or 4 days.

During that time my husband and my Dad were extremely helpful with making sure the workings around the house and kids were taken care of.  I feel extremely blessed that I had help!  I found myself feeling bad though since I am the one to normally make dinner.  I felt even more guilty since we needed to go grocery shopping before I even got sick. 

Needless to say, since Dustin was in charge of the cooking, the family had a little setback in the food department.  Once I was able to pick up a few things from the store, Dustin also mentioned that he wants to have more of "his foods" in the house....  great...

So, we did get some of his foods.  Not nearly as much of it as what used to be in the house, but I feel like my sickness was a major setback to our lifestyle.  I keep trying to rationalize it in my mind since we are still in the transitional phase that setbacks are to be expected.  So why does it bother me so much?

I can only assume that its so difficult on me because it requires me to have self control...  With all of the old junk I used to enjoy in the house, I find myself having a little bit of it myself.  I try so hard not to get mad about it all.  If I am being perfectly honest, I know I have even thought about how much easier changing my eating/exercising habits would be if I was single without children!  But then I quickly come back to reality and realize how miserable I would be....  Healthy physically, but an emotional disaster with out my family.  So, I'm thinking that's not a legit option worth pursuing..lol..

There is a part of me that does not even want to post this particular blog, but I feel its only fair to share the ups and downs with you.  Changing any habits are going to have roller coaster experiences with some having more loop-de-loops than others.  I've also noticed that I receive more feedback from people who are able to relate when I do post about my shortcomings.  We are human.  We will make mistakes.  The ultimate goal is to make less and less, but I promise that my mistakes will ever make it all the way to zero.

I am deciding that instead of feeling sorry for myself about our setback, that I really need to dwell on what wonderful health my family has even with our less than perfect eating. 

Now if you will excuse me, I have a banana calling my name...