So why am I doing this?

It's time to get real.  I enjoy a wonderful life with my husband, kids, college, but I have had a very unhealthy relationship with food. 

I feel very fortunate that even through all of the years of abusing my body by not eating healthy that I do not have any serious medical conditions.  I will, I'm sure, run into many problems if I do not get my act together...quickly.

I'm tired of feeling like an addict.  I have always said to people that I could quit my junk food habits whenever I want, but I knew deep down it wouldn't just be that simple.  I needed to have a plan.  The light bulb went on when I was in class learning about mental health and addictions.  I think about food way more than I should, I eat when I'm not hungry, and I have avoided social situations because I felt nasty or embarrassed about my weight.

It is not my intention to discuss the topic of food addictions in this blog even though it may come up every now and again.  I know there are several people out there who do not believe that food can be an addiction and I understand the logic behind that.  Whether or not food is or is not an addiction in your opinion, hopefully my use of the word addiction is not offensive to anyone.  (If it is, pretend I am saying bad habit instead...)

I'm tired of being a poor example of eating to my children.  I need to get my act together now so that they do not have these problems in their adult years.  I want to have more energy to play!

I recently became an RN and I have been having a conflict of interest burning in my heart (no its not heart burn...).  How can I, an educated health professional go out and get a job and teach people about their own health when I am not being very healthy myself?  I know what I have to do to be healthy and even took an elective nutrition course (since knowing about nutrition isn't a requirement to be a nurse).  That course taught mostly of the food pyramid and I am not sold on as a whole either, but is a good basis for a person to start at if they need to avoid the obvious junk like fast food and other treats.

Last and certainly not least, I have the desire to look healthy.  I don't want to be a super model, but I do want to feel attractive for myself.  My husband bless his heart, responds to my comment of wanting to be a trophy wife by saying, "You already are..."  I believe I am attractive to him already, but I can imagine he won't complain to much when I am wearing the size of clothes I was when I met him - while knowing my body is much stronger and healthier on the inside.

I have the motivation I need to do this.... now... If my juicer could just get here to start the reboot... :)  MUUAHHH!